...thoughts and ramblings...

2007-05-08T21:39:00.000-05:00

Another sporadic post. Sometimes songs just say it better. And I come back to this one often. Wish you could hear it instead of just reading it... may seem like another classic Christian song... but the words and the music become more than that to me.

When everything is wrong
The day has passed and nothing's done
And the whole world seems against me
When I'm rolling in my bed, there's a storm in my head
I'm afraid of sinking in despair.

CHORUS:

Teach me, Lord to have faith
In what you're bringing me will
Change my life and bring you glory &

There on the storm I am learning to let go
Of the will that I so long to control
There may I be in your arms eternally
I thank you, Lord, you are the calmer of the storm.

You rebuke the wind and the waves
Once again I find I'm amazed & the power of your will
Cuz I'm a child of little faith
I feel the wind and forget your grace
And you say, "Peace, be still."

There on the storm I am learning to let go
The white wave's high, it's crashing o'er the deck
And I don't know where I go
Where are you Lord, is my ship going down?
The mast is gone so throw the anchor
Should I jump and try to swim to land?

There on the storm, teach me God to understand
Of the Will that I just cannot control
There may I see all you love protecting me
I thank you Lord, you are the calmer of the storm.

--Calmer of the storm
--down here

march 7

2007-03-07T10:19:00.000-05:00

So I lost a post I was writing last week... we'll see if this one goes better. Still have mixed feelings about the whole blog thing but here goes.

I feel like I ask questions about money a lot lately and would hate to think that it is becoming a focus. I just want to learn and like to talk about it with people who are willing and who i feel like can impart some wisdom in financial matters. I read a Dave Ramsay book The Total Money Makeover. An easy read and some good stuff about eliminating debt and "living like no one else so later you can live like no one else" AKA don't buy a Tacoma right yet even though you really want to. (ok so it involves a lot more than that, but I would love to have a truck in my driveway... but paying off student loans and investing/saving for a house is a little more of a priority right now.) Suze Orman was also recommended to me and I am currently looking at her books online. I guess my point is that I want to be wise about my finances and I want to learn about everything... investing, saving, giving, planning without being over the top... etc... but often I feel like I don't know where to start. Ok put some money in a mutual fund- how do you go about picking one? holy moly. and all the jargon- whoah. Any advice?
**Don't get me wrong, I don't have much money to throw around, but I want to be wise (faithful?) with what I do have.

On a different note, the post I lost was a thought I found in an old journal I was looking through recently. It is a random sort of journal, and it makes me wish I did that consistently. Regardless, this stuck out to me:
"we are more bothered by physical suffering and sickness than by sin."
made me think.

fun in the cold winter sun

2007-02-06T22:23:00.000-05:00

There's nothing quite like playing outside in the 15 degree weather and feeling like it is refreshing and beautiful! (at least it was above zero!) Got to spend some time in the snowy outdoors with my dad and my niece. Snowshoed a bit on the lake and in the woods with Dad too- so enjoyable.

Looking forward to heading to Beaver Falls on Thursday. It has been too long. It will be good to be in one of the places that has been so important in my life and moreso to be with people that I miss. I'm sure it will be a little strange too... things change over time... which is good and healthy but can be strange too. But some things stay the same. And I think that's ok too.

needing others

2007-01-30T20:57:00.000-05:00

I have been reminded lately how much I need people. I need family. I need friends, and I need community. It's not just something that is nice to have or fun but it is a true need in our lives. God created us that way. Even in the midst of experiencing losses and struggles with people in our "community"--those we come to need and love most-- it's still so precious. I miss one of my closest friends who moved far away last week. People keep moving, and this one is the hardest. I feel like a piece of me is missing, and it hurts. I feel like that sounds silly or that I should "suck it up." I am excited for him, but we both had a hard time with it. Even worse is the frustration of seeing cancer rear its ugly head over and over again in the lives of people I love. Friend moved Tues, found out Wed that someone special to me has cancer, and Sunday a friend of our family passed away after a fairly long battle with cancer. These things deeply sadden me... and truthfully, it's hard not to become angry (again) at cancer and it's marked prevalence. In the midst of this past week, a dear friend said to me "apparently you just need to live in a hole and not love so many people." She was clearly not being serious, but I remarked "well that wouldn't be any good." And it wouldn't.

More thoughts later... maybe I'll be back for a bit...

big happenings in Maine

2006-11-21T21:06:00.000-05:00

So you might think I am a geek for posting about this... surely someone will be interested. This past weekend, I went to see what all the hype was over a new bridge in Bucksport, Maine. Formally titled The Penobscot Narrows Bridge, it is quite something, especially in the heart of rural Maine. So, you may ask, why spend 84 million dollars on a bridge in the middle of nowhere? But don't jump to conclusions so fast! In fact, it will bring many dollars to my state as well as provide spectacular views of the surrounding beauty. No, it's not all about the money. The old bridge (apparently quite something in its day) is literally falling apart, and many trucks, not to mention tourists and Mainers, travel that route. Another cool thing I just learned: it was built by two Maine companies (with outside engineering help I believe). It has an observatory (only one in the U.S. and one of only three bridges in the world that have one!)... this part is fashioned after the Washington Monument. It is a cable-stayed bridge- you can read about that on the websites if you are still reading this! So... 84 million is a lot of money, but it is huge for our state, and I do think it will be a good thing in the long run.

You should at least click on the link to see a couple pics.

reminder

2006-11-19T00:09:00.000-05:00

One cannot stay on the summit forever -
One has to come down again.
So why bother in the first place? Just this.
What is above knows what is below -
But what is below does not know what is above

One climbs, one sees-
One descends and sees no longer
But one has seen!

There is an art of conducting one's self in
The lower regions by the memory of
What one saw higher up.

When one can no longer see,
One does at least still know.

Rene Daumal

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I'm still here... just didn't have internet for a while... I was thinking recently about the notion of "coming off the mountain" and came across this poem. It's a good reminder of the necessity of that as well as the reason for going in the first place.

excellent

2006-10-22T18:26:00.000-05:00

ING

2006-10-03T21:22:00.000-05:00

Anybody have any thoughts on the ING bank system? Anybody reading this have an account through them? I am trying to learn more about money and budgeting and investing... a friend says I should open an account with them because it earns more interest... it weirds me out a little bit that it is only online (and yet that may seem a bit old fashioned of me, I like to think there is an actual place I can go to do transactions instead of linking it to another bank account online. I'm sure it's secure (?) but I am wondering also if it is what it is cracked up to be. I am reading on their website but looking for any further insight.

2006-10-01T20:54:00.000-05:00

so it's about time I show off my nephew! J.D. Littlefield (short for Joseph Dale)

big sister meets little brother for the first time...

haha

2006-09-19T21:23:00.000-05:00

So this YouTube thing is a little crazy to me... but interesting for sure. Check this one out. It's almost 5 min long, but I think it is ingenious. Brings back memories of my old school Nintendo (the only video games I had- but really, the best). This skit was done live at Gordon College. Watch it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGQ20yDDVzQ

whoo hoo!

2006-09-13T22:11:00.000-05:00

I have a nephew!!! Joseph Dale Littlefield, "J.D." was born today at 10:55 a.m. He is so precious. I got to see him through the nursery window on my lunch break (convenient to work at the hospital sometimes!) and then got to hold him after work. It was fun to see my niece as she met her baby brother for the first time. It will be interesting to see how she reacts when they go home. I'm a proud aunt times two now! Pics to come.. I don't know where I packed the cord. Praise God for this new addition to our family (and for a faster delivery for my sis this time, even if she did have to be induced!).

september sunday

2006-09-10T20:49:00.000-05:00

Seasons are changing again... I love the autumn season in Maine... but summer went so fast. And I'm not ready for football season- it's still baseball season, even if my beloved Red Sox are falling farther out of reach (I still believe- I'm a true blue fan, the best of the best).

It's September, and it's the first time in 19 years that it doesn't mean "back to school."

Tonight is the first night that I am sleeping at my apartment. Strange. But good I think. I'm 24 years old, and it was weird to leave home. And I'm only 15 min away. AND I lived away for 4 years before. What in the world? I guess that's a good thing- I am so thankful for my family.

9/11 is 5 years ago tomorrow, wow.

I am serving on the grand jury for my county. That translates to one day a month for a year, deciding whether to indict people or not. The first one was this past Tues. However, I do think it is interesting, and I'm sure I'll learn a lot. Probably some things I don't want to know- like the crappy things people do to each other in the cases we will hear. Some people are jealous that I got called, and others think it's the worst luck ever. It is my civic duty, and I'm willing to serve (not that I have a choice anyway, but still...).

Last but most exciting, my nephew will be born this week! WHOO HOO! If my sis doesn't go into labor by Wed, they will induce her.

over and out.

enjoying what you do

2006-08-26T11:23:00.000-05:00

I hope you enjoy what you do for work. I do. And I was greatly encouraged yesterday by my patient's husband who said to me "you obviously like what you do. That is one thing I have noticed about you is that you really enjoy your job." This was particularly meaningful coming on a friday afternoon from someone who I thought was going to be "difficult" to work with (my first impression of him was that he thinks he knows everything and is a bit overbearing, talking for his wife, etc). Well, needless to say, we then had a brief conversation about how you need to truly enjoy what you do. Then it was back to therapy with his dear wife.

It reminded me of the last time I talked to a really good faraway friend and he asked "how's work?" My answer was "work is great, I like it a lot." He replied "wow, that's great, not a lot of people could say that."

That is sad to me. I know, I know, what a concept, liking what you do. But really, I got thinking about it later and it also brings me back to some of the conversations and classes I was part of at Geneva. I'm so glad I stuck to this goal, and I really do feel like God can and is using me in the field of speech and language pathology. Consider this: I think it might even be unfaithful to work long-term doing something you don't like. I suppose that could use some fleshing out. Sure, there will always be days we don't like our job or aren't completely content. And yes, I am still in the "honeymoon phase" of my job. However, I can see myself being there for a long time, making connections with patients and coworkers, and bringing redemption to broken parts of Creation... even through speech therapy. Of course there are hard parts about my job, things I'm not confident in, broken parts of healthcare, and the occasional disappointment about who knows what. BUT, there are also many rewarding parts of the job, always new things to learn, challenges, and there are always patients who need us. I'm sure I would enjoy various jobs, and I even considered some of them (like the CCO: I think I would have enjoyed that too, but afterall wasn't your goal to "transform college students to transform the world"? Maybe this is how I'm supposed to do that. That's another story though.) But for now, I think this is right and good. God grant me wisdom to be faithful in my work.

Book Tag Thingy

2006-08-21T21:58:00.000-05:00

Keith tagged me for this book survey, and I do believe I'm the last one to respond. Here it is finally!

1. One book that changed your life: The Fabric of Faithfulness, by Steven Garber... along with many conversations before starting the book and while reading some of it... thanks friends.

2. One book that you’ve read more than once: hmm.. many children's books... and the Christmas one about Small One that Grammie and I used to read every year.

3. One book you’d want on a desert island: can't think of any other than the Bible and a journal would be nice.

4. One book that made you laugh: Most recently: Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller. I liked his way of writing and most of what he said too.

5. One book that made you cry: the one about hope that I read for a speech path class at Geneva: I don't remember the title. And actually I was recently reading something in Lamott's book about death right after Davey died, (weird timing.. just at that point of the book). definitely cried then too.

6. One book that you wish had been written: well, I wish more that I was in the process of writing my book. I'm gonna get on that. I'd also love it if William Armour had written something. He was like a grandfather to me for a short time. He was a wise and practical Christian man.

7. One book that you wish had never been written: some of those fluffy Christian books.

8. One book you’re currently reading: Little Women by Louisa May Alcott

9. One book you’ve been meaning to read: I'm embarassed to say that I'm two years out of undergrad and STILL have it on top of my books to read... The Transforming Vision by Brian J. Walsh and J. Richard Middleton. I've been meaning to read it since you gave it to me that day in your office.

10. Now tag five people: James, Laurie, Adam, Brad, Brooke.

my buddy Davey

2006-07-05T17:41:00.000-05:00

This is David Paul Willett, more affectionately known as Davey. I love him. I miss him. You see, he was in a car accident on Thursday. They took him to Belfast where he was found to have internal bleeding, a ruptured spleen, a collapsed lung, and was unconscious. They life-flighted him to Bangor. I was at the hospital working, but I had no idea that my friend was unconscious 5 floors down. I found out as I was riding the bus back to my car. I was trying to decide whether I should go back to the hospital or if they wouldn't want a lot of people. It wasn't very much later that my friend Adam, Davey's brother, called me back. I was hoping for an update... I was going to tell him I would be right there unless he didn't want people to come... and when I asked if he was at the hospital he said "I'm just leaving..." I stammered to begin asking where he was going and if he'd be right back... and how is Davey doing...before I got it out, I hear "He's gone." I couldn't believe it. and I didn't want to believe it. My buddy Davey was gone?! He had just gotten back up to Maine a few days before this, and I hadn't seen him yet. He was going to spend the summer here like he has the last few years. I didn't know what to say. What can you say? I'm trying to get it through my head that this is really happening and his brother is the one telling me... and he has just lost his brother.
Davey was 18 years old, was going to be a senior in high school in the fall. He has 10 siblings. I am not sure how many years ago I met him... probably at least 6 or 8.
I am very sad. I don't understand. I don't think I ever will. I don't understand a lot of things in this life. What I do know is that God is faithful, even when I don't see it. I also know that Davey knew God and is in His presence now, which I can't begin to fathom. I have since found out that he just got back from a missions trip in Florida, where he rededicated his life to the Lord and led some middle schoolers to Christ. That is awesome.
I have this great picture of me in between Adam and Davey, at the end of the last summer we all worked at camp, 2 summers ago. It has been on the stand next to my bed since then. Adam told me the other day that the same picture is on Davey's mirror in his room and it is on the wall in Adam's room. Kind of neat.
He was so special to me. Davey was Davey. He loved to have a good time and give me a hard time, all in fun. I loved that about him. I love his huge smile. I love how he was like a little bro to me at camp and when I would visit eastern PA. Lots of memories have been flashing through my head these last few days. Like the time Davey and Wes and I sat on the roof of this shed in the rain all afternoon so Davey could hunt. We saw one deer, and Davey missed it. The boys gave him a hard time later, but I told them to nevermind. Or the times he used to "promise" he was going to throw me in the lake... or the serious times... or watching him interact with the younger campers... so many things. I am thankful to have had my buddy Davey in my life. I wish he didn't have to die. His service was today in PA. I wanted to be there so bad, but I wasn't. I am glad they are having a memorial service up here on Saturday. It won't be the same, but at least I can go to that.
I need wisdom to be a good friend to Adam in the days ahead. I have tried to be in these last few days, but I want to be there when things calm down and it hits hard.
I am thankful for people in my life and promises in Scripture. I am thankful for friends who point those promises out with tenderness when I am too shook up to see them. I am thankful for time spent with people I love.
Thank you, God, for Davey.

2006-06-17T10:18:00.000-05:00

I bought a new book the other day. As if I need to add to the pile of unread books in my room. I love bookstores. I went in looking for a book for Dad for Father's Day and came out with one for myself. One because that's all I let myself get. I think I am looking forward to not having a lot of "required reading" so I want to read lots of books. And yet, I'm a fairly slow reader, I have plenty of them to read and it's not like I read all the time.

Regardless, I got Traveling Mercies: Some Thoughts on Faith by Anne Lamott. I was checking out lots of different books and came across some Donald Miller picks. I read his Blue Like Jazz last month and liked most of it. I liked how it was written and resonated with a lot of his thoughts about the church and such. That's pretty vague but I looked at some of his others... looked at the Lamott books.. and looked at various other authors. For some reason I was drawn to Lamott. She's someone I've never read. Some of the comments others made about her discuss her honesty- even "irreverent honesty" and her way of confronting things with a sense of humor and real-ness. Sounds like something I would like. I get tired of fluffy Christian books. I also feel like I remember Anne Lamott being at Jubilee (a great conference in Pittsburgh put on by the CCO) or at least her books were. So she must be worth reading and thinking about what she has to say. I'll be sure to follow this up with a few thoughts... now I'll have to. has anyone read it? I guess there's a newer follow-up to this book, but I thought I'd start with the original.

In other news, I went to a Red Sox game last Saturday. It poured and was delayed 5 hours. So we were there for 8 1/2. and we lost. but i got to see a game and we got free hot dogs in the second or third inning. good times. In bigger news, I just finished my first week of my new job at EMMC as an official speech pathologist. whoo hoo! I even started seeing patients on my own toward the end of the week. Still doing some orientation and observation but am easing in. The people have been really welcoming and I think it will be good overall. More thoughts on that later.

i'm off to enjoy the sunshine-

2006-06-04T13:31:00.000-05:00

Well there... it's been over a month since my last post. But here I am. No surprise that this is a bit sporadic, that's just the way it is.

Here's some of the highlights since then:

finished graduate school
Hooding Ceremony, May 12
Graduation, May 13
Graduation Party at my house, May 13
I got a laptop
I got a job at Eastern Maine Medical Center
Laurie Lane and I found an apartment (she moves in now, I'll move in end of summer)
Went to Boston for a weekend visit, toured Fenway Park
Discovered a new great ice cream/cafe place in Bangor with Kristen
Barry was home from D.C. for a week
Went to Allagash with Barry and his family and Nate
Highlights from Allagash: hanging out with Barry and Brad's family, playing cards and dice, laughing a lot, enjoying the beauty of northern Maine, kayaking, Barry and I swimming in the river on Memorial Day in our clothes, playing baseball with the little cousins, campfire and sparklers, seeing lots of moose and animals on our way home, chatting, etc!
Spent lots of time with Barry, Nate, Brad, and Alecia this week: love it!
Working at Maine Signs until I can start at the hospital
Spent time with my sister and niece

It has been a busy but good month... I am excited to start at the hospital but nervous too. So much is changing right now-- it's really strange. I'm no longer a student, I soon will be done at Maine Signs (it's been so good for me, and I love the people), I'm starting my first job as an SLP, and at the end of the summer, I'll move into an apartment with Laurie. Whoah! Side note about the hospital: my supervisor was my speech therapist when I was a little kid. Cool huh? Pretty neat how that has worked out.

new life

2006-04-28T23:21:00.000-05:00

On a much brighter note... I failed to mention something exciting. My sister and bro-in-law found out today that their second baby is a boy. She has to go back for another ultrasound I think in two weeks. They think the baby might have a club foot but they are unsure. We hope not, but if that is the only problem, it can usually be fixed. They are expecting him to arrive in early September. If he copies his big sis, he will come a couple weeks early. The first boy for our side of the family. I think Dad is excited. He will have a grandson (if they are right!). He loves all of us girls incredibly, and we are thankful. He will love having a boy around too. He's a good Papa. Boy or girl, we are excited to add another one to the fam!

drained

2006-04-28T22:52:00.000-05:00

yeah, feeling drained. I was feeling more tired than normal this week and wasn't sure why. I suppose it would make sense to feel that way in the last few weeks of an intense semester and moreso the end of my graduate program. But after yesterday (Thurs) I am more than tired. I am drained.... physically, emotionally, mentally.

I did the oral defense of my comprehensive exams. It was horrible. I passed, but that is pretty much the only positive from the experience. I was very discouraged and felt a bit belittled even. Certainly an unfortunate end to something I have poured myself into the last two years (or six if you want to look at the big picture, but who's counting? oh, me.) I didn't work my tail off and do well to feel like this. I will always have skills to improve on, but wow, I am not dumb. On top of that, I expected it to end with some discussion about my experiences in the program- an exit interview of sorts, and there was nothing like that. Yes, you can say I should have piped up, but honestly, all I wanted to do was leave that conference room. I talked to a few classmates and then left, got a blizzard and sat by the river. I wonder what my thoughtful friends in higher ed would say or think if we could chat about the experience.

Needless to say, I'm more than ready to be done now. Two more weeks. Sunny and 55 today. Praise God for sunshine and rivers. And a dear friend (and classmate at the university) who reminds me that I don't just memorize, I think about things. A piece of encouragement. And my mom, God bless my mom.

seasons are changing

2006-04-19T21:02:00.000-05:00

The grass is getting green. It was really windy today, but the wind is starting to feel warmer. April showers bring May flowers. Hopefully the April chill thaws soon. We have been teased a few times with warm weather... I think this is the time of year I miss living in Pennsylvania the most as far as weather goes. Spring was so nice and came earlier in PA. But it is shorter too, suddenly it would be summer before I was ready for it. But it worked well because then I'd head back to the end of a Maine spring and start of summer. I really do love Maine and I love it that there are four distinct seasons. It's an interesting concept, that of seasons. A new season can be so refreshing. I usually don't mind the winter (most of the time), but by March, spring is always welcome. It's the middle of April, and I'm still wearing my down vest. No frost on the windshield though. I'm really not complaining, just reflecting on seasons.

With this spring comes quite a shift in the seasons of my life! In 3 1/2 weeks I will graduate with a master's degree. I have passed the national certifying exam and the written portion of my comprehensive exams (to pass my grad program). I have the oral defense remaining as well as various projects and a final. Getting the results (finally) has been a HUGE relief as I have been preparing pretty intensely since January. However, motivation is lessening all the time. I think to myself "finish strong, be a diligent and faithful student" and so forth. And I want to. But wow, having a hard time pushing through. After I took comps April 1, it has been getting harder and harder. For goodness sakes, even working on projects with 3 of my closest friends/classmates has been a struggle. Not just doing it--even communicating and accomplishing the task effectively. Frustrating. No doubt everything will get done and hopefully done well. I have made it this far- no sense to do a crappy job at the end. And I don't think I will, but I find it...hmm... typical maybe that I am slipping into "just get it done mode"... as in, sure it's "normal" to feel this way. But it's annoying. Especially since it feels like none of this end stuff really matters since I've passed the big stuff. All of this is completely opposed to everything I was challenged on about faithful academics while at Geneva. And yet, I know there have been times where I failed to follow through on those things while in grad school... but I do think that I have worked hard, thought about things and made connections, and whatnot. It has been a long haul. most of the time I have enjoyed it, but I feel like I'm actually at a point where I'm ready for a break from school. is that obvious or what?!

A break from school? what? that's crazy. I have always enjoyed school for the most part. I especially loved college (Geneva) and am glad to have experienced grad school at the University of Maine. I have been in school 19 of my 24 years. I will probably have withdrawals sometime next year. I won't miss the reading and the endless projects/papers/exams probably. But the academic setting most likely. I vow to be a lifelong learner. Besides the fact that my field requires it, really, it's a must-- in my field and outside of my field.

One really encouraging thing lately is that I am reminded often that this is really what I want to do. Pretty much I want to be the best stinkin' speech language pathologist I can be! I have a passion for it, experiences that have shaped who I am and how I see myself in the field, and God has truly blessed me with great supervisors in my clinical practicums. Sure, I have days where I think, what am I doing? I am going to be the worst speech therapist ever. I expect to have days like this every so often forever, no matter how "experienced" I get. The affirming days outweigh those days though. Maybe this is my part in redeeming creation. I have been struck by the ramifications of the Fall, of the brokenness around us in new ways as I am working with elderly patients who have dementia, adults who have suffered a brain injury, stroke, and in a few cases, a drug overdose. Then I have to remind myself "it's not about the Fall" and look at hope found in progress and such. Hmm sounds like a topic for a different post. This is getting long. surprise surprise.

more later!

side note: the Sox (red ones of course-THE Sox) won again tonight to add to a great start of 11 and 4... which translates to 3 1/2 games ahead of the Yankees. :)

2006-04-16T19:25:00.000-05:00

Low in the grave he lay, Jesus my Savior,
waiting the coming day, Jesus my Lord!

Up from the grave he arose;
with a mighty triumph o'er his foes;
he arose a victor from the dark domain,
and he lives forever, with his saints to reign.
He arose! He arose! Hallelujah! Christ arose!

Vainly they watch his bed, Jesus my Savior,
vainly they seal the dead, Jesus my Lord!

Death cannot keep its prey, Jesus my Savior;
he tore the bars away, Jesus my Lord!

Robert Lowry

He is risen! He is risen indeed!
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Ah, one of my favorite hymns and definitely my favorite
Easter song. Nice day celebrating the Resurrection at my
sister's church and then the rest of the day at her house with
her, my bro-in-law, niece, and parents. Feeling pretty thankful!

here I am

2006-04-14T23:16:00.000-05:00

So... I decided to start a blog afterall. I have considered it numerous times over the last year or more but have always decided against it for some reason or another. Some of them silly and some possibly legit.. regardless, I enjoy reading others' blogs and am drawn into it more and more. I often get thinking (usually while driving or random times) and I think "I should journal about that" or "I could blog about that" but then I don't usually do anything with it. Maybe this will be space for some of that. I hope for some of it to be thoughtful but if you know me, you know I ramble sometimes too. Kind of like I am right now. so here it is. no promises!

Today was Good Friday. I'm glad the story doesn't stop there.